I am alive!

I promise you all that I am, but by the lack of comments from most I'm unsure if people even read here anymore..

Life revolves around a few select things at the moment:
- work
- sleep
- work
- sleep
- planning the handfasting
- work
- sleep
- very little sex and the issue that presents
- work
- sleep
- home life and having very little alone time with J

That sums up everything in the last little while I would say.

I've been feeling very overwhelmed at work. My role is a very demanding one and all other CSOs I know are feeling just as overwhelmed as I am. I'm the type of person that needs to be able to do my job to the best of my ability - not for anyone else, that is solely for myself.

Lately I've been buried underneath all of the competing demands and no time to actually do any one thing I need to do to the best of my ability.

This is something I'm just going to have to learn to accept.... unfortunately!

J and my sex life is in need of help.. there is no problem with our attraction towards each other, our sex drives, us WANTING to be intimate.. we just never have the opportunity to!!!

I'm at work from 8am till around 6.30pm each weekday and then I come home to J... and James and mum. We make dinner, we do the dishes and clean up and then we do what we want to do (watch a little tv etc) which is ALWAYS with other people. By the time we go to bed I'm exhausted and need to sleep and that's exactly what we do.

We can't really just disappear into the bedroom for a while without everybody else knowing exactly what we're doing. We live in a very small villa with thin walls and it just feels awkward.

Big issue.. ugh! We've both decided we need to go away for a weekend together. We really need some alone time!