A few days ago, J was able to talk to his dad and brothers over in the U.S. It's usually quite and ordeal trying to get through at that end as the phone is always busy!

I love it when J has been able to talk to them, his face lights up, he seems very happy and he gets so excited telling me all the news from that side of the world.

I ask J often if he's feeling homesick and missing them. He always says he isn't homesick and of course he does miss them but that he loves being here with me. Regardless of what he says, I know just how much he is missing them being an everyday part of his life.

It would make him so very happy to have them close by, and if there was any way I could make that happen I would in a heartbeat.

Somedays I feel very guilty for taking him away from them as they play such an important part in his life.

When J talked to them yesterday, they discussed the possibility of his dad and brothers coming down for the handfasting in June. He was so excited when telling me about it. I haven't seen him that excited in a long time.

When living with one's mother and brother it becomes quite difficult for a couple to find time to be... intimate. We live in a small villa, with thin walls and very little room. We don't really get time to ourselves till we go to bed, and by that time I'm so exhausted that all I want to do is sleep. J is being wonderfully understanding about it and making no complaint at all. He may be understanding but I'm feeling so guilty about it, and just a little frustrated myself!

Something we need to work on...